Paw Paw

by Nino Melo
(Toronto, Ontario, Canada)

when i first got my puppy he was i think 8 weeks old. i was so excited. i took him home and in the middle of the night, he cried. he was just new in his new place and just got seperated from his mom. i put him on the blanket and cuddle him and put him on bed. then he stops crying and i woked up the next morning and he's there on my side and give me a warm feeling.

He is not stubborn and he is good. he dont really barks unless he wants your attention. everytime we walk he never go infront of me. he is always on the side or beside me and everytime i stop, he stops too and he will raise his ears and give me a really cute look and it totally breaks my heart. He always wants to be with me. on the bed, walking, everywhere i go.

everytime we walk and he see people he go into them and always want to be notice. since he is soo cute and my whole area know him cause of his cuteness they call him "little fluff ball" he is just a fluff of ball cause of his long upward furr and they just love him and cuddle him everytime. i got so much compliment and meet alot of new people, friends and dog owner.

I'm a dad of my little paw paw and try to give him all the attention he needs and at the same time i have to work for myself and for him. ive barely got no time for him because of my schedule.


I live in apartment so its hard for me to train him even he is small. he is a shiranian (shitzu/pomeranian). my parents dont like him cause he poops and pee and i guess they are dogs so they smells.

I feel so bad for him as i feel bad for myself. i decided to sell him for soo cheap and installment. now i dont have him and the person that bought him still didnt pay me yet. they took everything. the cage, food, bowls, toys and nothing is left but a piece of shreded newspaper where my dog poo.

as i lay on my bed, my mind cant stop thinking of my puppy and my memories with him. i just realize now how important he is for me. our bonding together, when he sleeps on my bed, when he go with me shopping, when he follows me everywhere, his cute face and ears and when he runs like a rabbit. i realize now how i love him when he is gone. im soo mad on myself. my dog... he's not just a dog, but i treated him worse than a dog ,while others keep saying "hes the cutest puppy ive ever seen in my whole life"

now, i dont know what to do. i sold him for nothing. all i know now is now or never! if i dont get him back i can never take care of a puppy again because of my irresponsible act. or now, that if i get him back i can now start a new beginning and build a new happily ever after story with my paw paw.